as i fall to sleep..
i'll start to cry..
i'll close my eyes..
and hope to die..
i'm so alone..
with a broken heart
no one to hold..
it rips me apart..
but i wake each morning
with tears on my cheeks
my face in my pillow..
unable to speak..

i never wanted much out of life... just someone to share my heart with.. but i have come to the conclusion.. that for some people.. there will never be that oppotunity.. i'm 37 6ft 4in and have had so many women friends.. but never a kiss a cuddle or a holding of hands.... as much as it hurts.. i accept that this can never happen.. but if i could just find a special person in my life who i could look out for.. and be there for.. when ever she needed me i to share.. tears and pain.. smiles and laughter.. i would feel at least i had a purpose and a reason to live on this hard to understand planet..