Hear I am 2200 miles from Her. I lied and manipulated her over and over again.
SO She withdrew from me, and the more she withdrew, the more I resented her forit, and the more I pushed her away...
Now that I am so far away, I can't be anywhere but there...at least in my head...
SO She withdrew from me, and the more she withdrew, the more I resented her forit, and the more I pushed her away...
Now that I am so far away, I can't be anywhere but there...at least in my head...
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Re: All alone...
Fri, February 9, 2007 - 10:21 PMI was 1600 miles away, didn't lie nor manipulate, just giving, romance, etc.
We split up.
I moved, and we got back together, but still 600 miles between us.
Again, no lies, no manipulation, just giving, supportive, caring, but still she didn't want us together. So frustrating! Emotionally damaging.
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Fri, February 9, 2007 - 10:39 PMMmm what to say. All I know is I know what you guys are saying I went through it all to.
Look now Im happy.....hold on to the good memory's thats what you treasure. -
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Fri, February 9, 2007 - 10:56 PMThe problems of what were happy memories feel like I was wasting my time. I didn't want a few memories with someone I wasn't going to spend my life with, I wanted a life time.
From an "equation" point of view. A good time is say 10/10 for a day, or a week. But if you only got 10 of them over a few years, that scores a total of 50.
If you didn't have as good time, say 5/10 but did it for your lifetime, say 40 years, that scores 200 by the time you die.
But for me the first score of 50, might as well be 0, it was a waste of time, as you didn't finally get to settle down with them.
There's also the downside of being long distance, so even a person who is 10/10 for you, but you only see then every month for a few day (eg 10% of the time), gets a score of 1/10.
If you knew someone who was only an 8/10, they have some things that are no so fun, but livable, and you are with them 75% of the time, that's still 6/10.
Six times better?
AND... you don't get any trauma of living alone while they choose not to ever live with you anyway. -
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Sat, February 10, 2007 - 10:54 AM"God sometimes you dont come through...why do you always go when the wind blows?...tell me youre crazy, then maybe ill understand...why do you always go when the wind blows?will you even tell her if you decide to make the sky fall?"
www.youtube.com/watch
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Sat, February 10, 2007 - 12:36 PMThanks for all your responces to this...
I amin treatment now for this...
She and I are talking again, She says she will always love me,and wants to be with me again.
but I have to stay here, because I have lots of work to do. -
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Sat, February 10, 2007 - 2:11 PMGood for you for dealing with your problems and trying to be the best person possible. You are investing in the life-long relationship you will have with yourself and investing in having healthier relationships with others in the future. -
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Sun, February 11, 2007 - 2:29 AMthis should be the only tribe in which i take part etc because no one seems to want to fuckin talk to me.im gonna delete most of my supposed friends.. -
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Sun, February 11, 2007 - 9:00 AMAlly, deleting your supposed friends will reduce any chance you have to have then talk to you. Just leave them there, maybe setup a profile module of friends who talk to me, and friends who don't. It is possible those in the "don't" category will open up one day.
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Sun, February 11, 2007 - 6:30 PMa great new song, that hits on so many levels is by
peter bjorn & john, Objects Of My Affection
the whole album is great
www.amazon.com/Writers-Bl...066-8088654
its not about quantity but quality of friends..
even so, we all can feel so alone..
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Tue, February 20, 2007 - 12:48 PMYou never know what you have until it's lost.Sometimes we learn too late. -
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Mon, February 26, 2007 - 9:53 AMSorry I have been less than communicative, I have just been tending to my crazy issues... I have never been accused of beintg the most talkitve.
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